It seems like I'm given a chance, among others, and people already have planned some such I'm unacceptable, and they just smile and see what I have to say, as though I have an unfair opportunity, ready to drop me socially in my static and changing surroundings.

Germans don't live for today because they don't "go for it," like as people-  That's why we had the problems of WWI/WWII.  They seem to think only they are special and can feel special.