I know why people hate me.

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I am thinking of 4 things now:

1 - How I flunked college…

2 - I spammed my e-mail list advice when I was very painfully lonely and apologized as I did it, for months.

3 - How I sometimes spent my parents's money they gave me, like getting toys for my younger brother's dog or food in college.

4 - My violent/out-of-control/aggressive/unexplainable (but not hurting people nor in illegal ways) behavior when people would not stop being mean to me. I'm not sure what could have happened.


I know there are many things that people are supposedly scared about with me, but the biggest is probably when I lose responsibility for my schoolwork, though I'm always behaved and usually get all A+'s. What happens is my previous classes don't prepare me to leap to advanced ones.

I think other things people lose it with me for are just pretend and it's really validated, according to them, that I did do something, at least 1 thing, bad enough, and it's like/one of the things I listed.

How is your family and relatives life?

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It seems like my "family and friends" life somehow ended and we were came in as concentrating on my relatives life.

I do know the *vacations* were sponsored by my police aunt and life seemed to sorta be highlighted or accentuated there, maybe in some culmination.

I think my other aunt's daughter, my younger cousin, is upset at me if I mention such ventures, these *vacations* because they were, well, "all about her." She was in trouble more than once a minute. It might have been like an average of every 10 seconds, "give or take." I don't exactly remember for some reason, as I forget such things. It was probably often my aunts picking at her attitude. People seem to all agree, not all people, that it was my police aunt's fault, not the mom, and she has no kids of her own. They think she was the best girl in the world because her mom is so beautiful. My dad already seemed self-satisfied, secretly thinking she's better, because, like, "it was something that happened in daycare" when she was like 1, 2 years old, maybe 3 and possibly on. Just go to some peak of pleasure and it's gonna be a fight of pain on others to concentrate on her, rather than not pain etc.

I don't mean to sound bad or anything or say anything bad about anyone…

Why do mixed Blacks become more assimilated to their non-White side…

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…while others not as much maybe?

Her last name is "Lee."

1/2 Japanese

1/2 Asian (She looks attractive in an Asian way.)

Attractive Asian Mom With 1/2 Asian Kids

Do people flat out experience less racism if…

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…they are all one race but at least not both White and non-White?

…or if you are Oriental + White? I am that, and I went out today and everyone was so sweet and kind and on top of it. They also didn't act like I was some other inferior race nor "different" at all but even better and not even because of my unique mix. I'm in the Cleveland, Ohio, area and ventured out for a job interview, today.

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