Did you lose it? Symphony orchestras today…

I can't see myself working for a symphony orchestra, I don't have the spirit like something can happen that hasn't, like a new sound. It seems outdated, like it should have happened or something, years ago.

I am waiting for lunch, not practicing because I am so hungry.

I applied to some more jobs to keep private, though, since the job might give away the location.

 Group homes suck when you need to use the bathroom etc. or are hungry and still don't have much money.

Just a Dream Away

First, I had a dream with my relatives like at a sorta medium-sized vacation cabin we'd been at.

I remember I kept falling down and around like in circles in a pattern and these black images kept popping out, maybe like Alice in Wonderland.

I remember I was in bed in a room with another girl, maybe a big place with other beds or just 1 more.  We were dreaming and making our lives whatever we want.  I remember once I may have held her hand, from sitting up in my bed looking out.

It was still dark, and there were some maybe old European Spanish people, kids.  Someone had me in charge.  I led them.  I remember one was a danger and weak and they put him in a jail cell with other inmates in a bed, as it was time to sleep.  I found I was in England.

Other things happen I cannot recollect, out of the dream now.

I still feel high in my blood sugar.  I think I missed a diabetes pill, may be out of one.  I have that like jittery feeling, like in my legs mostly.  I haven't had much sugar, today, carbs as the buns at Burger King, fish and chicken for $6.  I know I didn't get as much strenuous physical exercise as I wanted.  I ate less healthily than I wanted, as well.  They gave us too much carbs in the group home.  I have to avoid the noodles / macaroni and cheese.  I also can't eat the waffles at breakfast, gives us 2.  So, I just have eggs or sausage.  She has cereal like Cheerios.  If she gets other kinds, the boys get hungry and eat it at night.  Those were the days...