My mom wanted me to put blush high on my cheekbones and not my cheeks at all so much it seems.  She does that, stuff like that, like I care too much about being as pretty as possible for me.

It's some people's dreams to put me "up" as something to aggressively and bluntly factor, with no bail.

Too bad, Dad?

I felt he thought something bad of me.. I was not accepted by others for my former natural beauty and not wearing makeup as a teenager.  Can you kinda remember a feeling that teenagers can be beautiful without makeup? like that was a big thing?  I wonder what Caucasians did a long time ago who weren't royalty etc.  I had this problem with blackheads and didn't do anything, like I couldn't tell whether or not my hair was really long around then sometimes.  Now, everyone thinks I'm an invalid and a reject, which seems rude and out of place.  You could still tell I was an innocent person trying to get by, wish I forgot about school, too, so I could take care of my health..

Edit

I edited my last post.

So, all that fuss, things like what Tim Burton and Johnny Depp do winding up to be, in big ways, just to say I'm not really Italian.