"The Wild West"

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It looks like the "young girl" in front went full out and forgot her ladylike roots.

I guess that's just it for me, and I had my hair cut nice with bangs and short and my choir director secretly acted like I should grow it out and eventually I did all the way, like a hag and again.

What are all these weird things, my parents not helping me about or steering me away from?

I thought I'd feel younger not to wear makeup, for some reason.  Is it too late to have fun with it and be someone for it?

Why did my pores get bigger?  Why didn't I know of products for it or think to ask or look?

Germans

Do you like how older American ladies, like the age to be my grandma, act secretly like Germany is bad, even if they are German?  When a German gets mad at you, it goes to show what you would "get" to have, after all.

What I Think About Myself

I don't know why people started paying attention to if I "make problems."  My life became an experiment, and we eventually moved to Orlando for my dad's job.  It was a terrible place.  My dad was always mean to me and prevented me from functioning, like winding down from it.  The city partly hated me, and people collectively used racism against me.  Sometimes, I stomped my foot a little, and the hate and pain increased.  So, I did it more, and people thought that was it, I fell for the trap of Orlando.  People used to look at me inappropriately.

I suppose I lost a career in the creative and performing arts and fame in it.  No one cares about me, anymore, and I feel hatred.